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Thursday, September 2, 2010


I havent been able to write lately , I just try to keep myself busy so I dont have to feel too much , Im so fed up with grieving .
I do see a therapist so I hope it will change .
I just wanted to post one of my favourite poems that always makes me cry ,

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.

This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord,

“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”

The Lord replied, “The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you.”


Mary Stevenson, 1936


  1. Sweetest Angie,

    This brings me to tears, as I have not read this poem in a long time. But, oh how I love it and how true it is.

    I'm so sorry for what you are enduring and my heart hurts for you. As for staying busy to avoid all those feelings of grief, I understand. When I was busy there was not time to dwell on loss and my aching heart. Therefore, I emersed myself in as many things as I could to distract myself and to be honest I still am. This journey is just not easy....

    I pray for you my dear friend and wish you peace, comfort and understanding. I'm hopeful that your therapist will help you to work through these things. Mine was such a blessing and I only wish I had gone sooner.

    Keep your chin up honey and I thank you again for your wonderful friendship. I'm here if you need me :)


  2. Sending you love beautiful girl and praying that you continue to find strength in His love and peace. Knowing that the grief keeps coming is so hard, but we are holding you up! We will make it through this and we will see our "bring home babies"!

    Love and hugs and lots of prayers!!!

  3. I'm sorry to hear of the super rough time you are having. Maybe it is best that you do thing that make you feel. You deserve a chance to grieve. Until you get it all out, I don't think full healing will come. Have you done anything in memorial for your baby? I don't know, like put up a painting in your home, written a poem for baby, chosen a song to represent little one...etc. I don't think this is something one can just 'move on' from. The memory will always be with you. I think the change has to come from moving it from a negative memory to a very positive one.


  4. Just want to stop and send you some love. I think of you often and have been praying for you. Praying that our season of grief will soon change to one of peace, joy and the love of earthly babies. Hugs to you my kindred spirit.